Preacher Kid Confessions

The true story of one woman's journey in faith

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HEY MY PEEPS THIS DOG LOOKS LIKE MY DOG BUTCHER HE’S MY DAVID’S DOG HE’S HAD SINCE HE WAS WEENED FROM HIS MOM. HE’S THE SWEETEST DOG BUT HE ONLY HAS DAYS TO LIVE AND NOW WE MUST DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT TO EUTHANIZE HIM OR ALLOW HIM TO DIE NATURALLY. WHAT A CHOICE!!

A couple days ago Butcher was licking my arm as I petted him under his chin, from the first day I met him at David’s place, he gave me the run down on his history with our puppies, Mamas is 15, Butcher is 11, he’s extremely close to them kissing them all the time, hovering over them like a storm cloud, they can’t move an inch without him questioning their whereabouts, STOP, LAY DOWN, GO HERE. GO THERE, EAT THIS, DON’T EAT THAT, STOP, UGHHHH, MAN DUDE GO, all day everyday, I’m surprised they still have nerves left from him worrying them to death. He went from our hyper, fun Butcher to our lying around, not eating, eyes red, drooling Butcher so we took him to the Vet to run test this morning once I got home from working my overnight shift.

David is really hurting right now I feel so bad for him, he loves Butcher and Mamas as if they’re human beings, they’ve been his only constant all these years because of his estrangement with his family due to past drug and alcohol use. His parents are deceased, he’s close to his sister who lives near us and our Kids and Grands live out of state, so the dogs are all he’s had and now one of them is dying and we must decide what our next step must be, let him die naturally or have him euthanized, I personally don’t believe in euthanizing, I’m a caregiver by trade and have had clients die right in front of me.

I know the smell of death, once you’ve smelled it you’ll never forget it and once my clients get to that stage of life where death is seeping through their pores I know it’s a matter of time before their organs begin shutting down completely. The reason for the scent is because the organs are beginning to shut down and now the decision must be made to keep the client as comfortable as possible until they take their last breathe and I feel the same for Butcher. We found out he has a tumor in his abdomen, were not sure if it’s cancerous we were told he needed surgeries that would cost thousands of dollars with no promise of a cure  so we decided to bring him home.

We discussed euthanizing and cremation prices and decided to cremate him allowing him to die naturally IN HIS OWN TIME at home where he’s comfortable. I’M NOT GOD, WHO AM I TO TAKE A LIFE JUST TO PREVENT THEM FROM SUFFERING!!! In my 36 years of experience I’ve never had a client’s family put them to sleep simply to spare them of pain and suffering, they all were instructed to keep the patient as comfortable as possible until the end and that’s  exactly what they did, now we’re faced with the same dilemma with Butcher.

While we waited for the Vet to come back into the waiting room, David and I took pictures with Butcher showering him with love and affection trying hard not to cry in front of him sensing he’ll not want to fight to stay alive so we just hugged each other for about 5 minutes crying in each other’s arms quietly saying goodbye as reality is setting in that OUR BUTCHER WILL DIE IN A MATTER OF DAYS!! It’s been over 40 years since I had a dog, they all died over time by natural causes where we would find them deceased and buried them in our backyard, Butcher will be cremated just like David’s dogs in the past and he will send is ashes to his son in California who was extremely close to Butcher when he was a young boy and I must deal with David’s grief over losing his close companion of all these years.

He’s been crying off and on since this morning I don’t know what to do for him to make it better but I will try something in order to help him get through this bereavement period in his life. He’s lying on the floor next to our puppy lovin’ on him, saying his goodbyes silently with tears strolling down his face. My heart aches for David, I love him so, this is really tough for him but I have no doubt he will get through this, NO, WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER!! Neither of us feel comfortable enough to just take Butcher’s life all WILLY NILLY, we feel it’s not up to us it’s God’s call just like it is with human beings, besides if I as a caregiver decided to end my client’s life sooner than need be, they’d arrest me for murder and lock me up for life so I feel the same rule applies here in this situation, WHAT DO YA’LL THINK MY PEEPS I WELCOME ANY COMMENTS AND ADVICE, how would you handle this situation? Feel free to comment.

David has said from day one that Butcher was going to be MY DOG because he took to me right away and once we moved into the house, he would lay at my feet no matter where I was sitting and at night he’d lay at the foot or my side of the bed while I slept so when I wake up he could greet me with a lick on my hand as I petting him on his head. This is our daily routine and I for one will miss him very, very, much I understand David’s connection to his dogs, I share in his connection and we will grieve our dog together until THE END. Goodbye BUTCHIE BUTCH, HE’S MY BUTCHIE BABY BOY ( ONE OF MANY NICKNAMES I’VE GIVEN HIM OVER THE MONTHS) I will miss you and I love you.

We were hoping he’d walk down the aisle with us at our upcoming wedding but we know it won’t be happening now, HE WILL BE MISSED AND REMEMBERED ALWAYS!! MAMA AND DADDY LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BUTCHER!!! SO LONG MY FRIEND! Let the words of my mouth and meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer, have a blessed day my peeps keep us in prayer as we pray for all of you in our daily prayers MY FAMILY!!!!

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HEY MY PEEPS I’M SO THANKFUL TO ALL OF YOU WHO READ MY POSTS AND LEAVE COMMENTS, I’M NOT THAT COMPUTER LITERATE TO RESPOND TO EACH COMMENT SO I’M THANKING YOU ALL NOW! I HOPE MY STORY WILL HELP BUILD, ENCOURAGE, ENLIGHTEN, AND EMPOWER OTHERS TO FACE THEIR TRAUMATIC HISTORIES WITH FAITH IN KNOWING GOD’S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR US REGARDLESS OF OUR STRUGGLES!!!

GRACE IS: GOD’S- RICHES -AT- CHRIST’S- EXPENSE- and I’ve learned over the years how much Grace the Lord has given me in my lifetime of sin SO WHEN IT COMES TO DEALIN’ WITH OTHER’S ESPECIALLY MEN I’M LEARNING TO BE GRACIOUS WITH THEM TOO. Men are complicated, men are immature, men are self centered and most times selfish BUT REAL MEN ARE hardworking, great father’s, selfless, protective, smart, and funny and that’s why I say they’re complicated and all those things describe the men I’ve dated in my past including My David!!! He’s had a really bad upbringing and history, I’ve never known a man whose gone through as much as he has so I’m learning grace and patience from the Lord when dealing with him. He and his sister have told me stories of their past since I’ve known them but I know there’s more to tell BUT what I do know is he came from a broken family of SEVERE ALCHOLIC, ABUSIVE, CHAIN CIGARETTE SMOKIN’ parents who divorced, his father met another woman had a daughter by her (who’s the sister he’s close to here where we live now) and now exposed to the abuse JUST FOR BEIN’ BORN!

They’ve both told me of incidents of his sister being his lifeline as a kid because when she visited she became his LIFELINE from the physical abuse he’s been receiving since he was young, at the age of 2 he was nicknamed JD it means juvenile delinquent and as he grew up he displayed the behavior through adulthood. One time his mom was beating his sister with a BROOMSTICK JUST FOR BEIN BORN FROM HER EX until it broke across her back, My David stepped in and took the rest of the beating for her and that began an unhealthy bond they share to this day. As he grew he got into trouble with alcohol and drugs and has served time in prison after serving in the US Marines. He’s 18 years sober and although he’s no longer doing them, their long term affects are manifesting in our relationship where at will he can act like the perpetual 5 year old throwing temper tantrums or having what a friend has called “BANGIN’ ON THE HIGHCHAIR TIME” and it is hard for me to handle MOST TIMES.

It’s a medical fact that when a teenager begin doing drugs, over time they resort back to age 9 or less mentally due to the effects of the drugs and when it’s carried over into adulthood, we women are left with GROWN 6 YEAR OLD MEN who come into our lives with the ultimate line they’ve used on every woman over the years but NEVER REVEALING THEIR IMMATURITY UNTIL THEY HAVE US HOOK, LINE, AND SINKER! In my case it was David who plead his case with me but failed to reveal his true self and how immature he is considering his age. He’s whimsical at times, ANAL ABOUT PERSONS BEING HELD ACCOUNTABLE, and very sensitive, he can easily be offended or get his feelings hurt and once that happens he begin to yell, rant and rave, WAH, WAH, WAH, like a baby in a highchair bangin’ until he gets my attention BUT THE ATTENTION HE ENDS UP GETTIN’ DOESN’T HELP HIS BEHAVIOR so he begin whining about how he can’t TAKE THIS, AND HE CAN’T TAKE THAT, I HATE THIS AND I HATE THAT, YOU SAID SOMETHING TO HURT MY FEELINGS, I CAN’T TAKE YOUR MOUTH, (ALTHOUGH HE’S THE ONE WHO GOT ME STARTED IN THE FIRST PLACE), BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BANG, BANG, BANG, WAH, WAH, WAH!!

We went out to eat yesterday before I went to work, (I failed to remember what happened the last time we went to dinner before work when we argued about the car insurance and I told him off, you’d think I’d learned my lesson BUT NOOOOOO I had to take him out. We ordered our food, he got his first, I had to wait more than ten minutes or more for my food so after awhile I went to the counter to get a refund because I lost my appetite for the food because it was taking so long to prepare. By this time David has gotten out of his seat walking to the counter speaking loudly, and sarcastically to the workers throwing a STONE COLD STEVE AUSTIN FIT IN FRONT OF ALL THE CUSTOMERS AND STAFF and EMBARRASSING THE HECK OUT OF ME AND MAKING ME ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME. I COULDA PUNCHED HIM IN THE THOAT (YES I SAID THOAT) IT’S A BLACK THANG, HEYYYY LOL, I turned to him as I stood in front of the manager embarrassed as all get out and told him to STOP, JUST SHUT UP, ALL THAT IS NOT NECESSARY, I’M HANDLING IT AND YOU’RE EMBARASSSING ME, JUST STOP!!!!

I felt less than 2 ft tall that’s how loud and animated he was in that restaurant. The patrons were looking at us this black woman and white man together, I’M LOOKING FLY AS USUAL BECAUSE THAT’S HOW I ROLL lol, while he’s walking around bangin’ on the highchair thinking he’s helping me when he’s not! I got my money back, gathered my items and walked out the door embarrassed as heck and equally mad at David for acting  like that IN PUBLIC IN MY ROYAL PRESENCE LOL  I told him off NICELY, he pouted for awhile afterwards until he noticed it wasn’t working nor getting any kind of positive attention from me and stopped TRIPPIN! I’m praying daily for patience in dealing with this GROWN MAN/CHILD, he and my daughter can act the same age at times like they did last weekend and a whole lot of times prior to then but I Love them both with all my heart and wouldn’t trade neither of them in for no amount of money.

God has been patient with me over the years, he continues to be patient with me, I’ not perfect at all, I make all kinds of mistakes, I repent daily for my sarcastic sense of humor when it offends those who don’t get it, like David at times, I pray for patience although I’ve grown over time I still have a ways to go especially when dealing with David. He’s a wonderful man but very immature for his age, he tries real hard to please me and make me happy, he does a great job of it because I am happy despite our struggles, I’m in this marriage for the long haul sometimes I wander if he feels the same especially during his highchair moment or when I’m having my moment, he’s still around so maybe he does feel the same. Our big day is coming, we’re so excited, I pray Lord God that you mature my husband to the man he needs to be for the family you’ve blessed him with for the rest of our lives may I be a supportive yet patient wife to him showing grace and love along the way. I only want to build him up, not tear him down.

He’s my hero, the love of my life, I’m honored to be HIS and pray I can be the woman of God he needs me to be for both he and the Lord. Thank you Lord for blessing me and my child with a wonderful HELPMATE!!! Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. Thanks again to all who follow me and read my posts feel free to comment once you follow me, I’ll respond back to you, I promise. Ya’ll are an encouragement to me to continue to share my life with you MY FAMILLY it’s not easy but it’s necessary for my HEALING IN THE LORD. MUCH LOVE

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HEY MY PEEPS I PRAY ALL IS WELL! I TOOK MY DAVID HOME TO MEET MY MOTHER FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS PAST WEEKEND, BOY, WHAT WAS I THINKING????

My big day is coming soon, the wedding I’ve dreamed about since I was a teen is finally coming true in a matter of weeks and I’m sooooo excited to become MRS MY DAVID!!!! LOL I’m not printing his real name for privacy purposes, anyway, we’ve been planning a trip to meet my mother since early spring so we finally got the chance to go, the day of the trip started out okay but it turned bad when MY DAVID begin acting like the perpetual 5 year old before, during and after the drive I WAS SOOOO ANGRY WITH HIM I LET HIM KNOW IT!!! It all began Fri evening after picking up my daughter from her dad, David was piddling around coming up with last minute petty nonsense he needed to do before our 6 hour road trip. I told him on the previous Monday to have everything he needed for the trip packed and ready to go by the door so once I arrive we’ll go, WELLLL IT DIDN’T HAPPEN LIKE I PLANNED, he was working my RESERVE NERVE, he had nothing ready except for what I packed the prior day PLUS he had NO SENSE OF URGENCY AT ALL!!

At this point I’M BOILIN’ WITH ANGER because it’s getting later and later, I’m tired from working the previous overnight shift until 4p the next day (Fri) the day we leave for the trip and he doesn’t seem to care. We brought the dogs with us because he didn’t want to be separated from them, (WHAT WAS HE THINKIN’?) He micromanaged those poor dogs THE ENTIRE TIME, DO THIS, DO THAT, SIT HERE, SIT THERE, STOP, MAN, OH MAN, STOP, LAY HERE, STOP DROOLIN’, OH MY GOD, SIT DOWN, STAND UP, LAY HERE, SIT THERE, OH MY GOD, UGH YA’LL GETTIN ON MY NERVE, UGHHHHHHHHHH the entire trip to the point to where I had to finally tell him to “LEAVE THEM ALONE” many, many, times during the trip. Once we got on the road, my daughter decides to join the WORK MY MAMA’S RESERVE NERVE PARTY My David has thrown for me since earlier in the evening and now I must think for not only myself, but he and my daughter too!!! Ya’ll know I blew up right??? We ended up getting a flat tire so instead of calling AAA, I changed the tire myself then went back home to get rest before the next morning’s trip.

My dad is deceased as well as my grandparents on both sides of my family so my mom is the only parent left for him to meet and since we didn’t come earlier in the summer she’s really looking forward to the visit, she baked David a German Chocolate Cake that’s waiting for him once we arrived so we’re both excited about the meeting, we planned to leave at 8am the following morning once we replaced the spare tire but ONCE AGAIN he hem hawed around about any and everything sending me into an early rage before I HAVE TO DRIVE 6 PLUS HOURS with him, my child and the dogs in the car. ( OH, BY THE WAY DID I TELL YA’LL THE LORD BLESSED ME WITH A NEW CAR TWO WEEKS AGO? IT’S AN SMALL SIZE SUV big enough for our family including the dogs) The Lord knew we needed a bigger car for traveling with our puppies so I went to the lot where I was shown this particular vehicle, I told the salesman I wanted it and drove off the lot with it 2 hours later or less, PRAISE THE LORD, HE IS STILL IN THE BLESSIN’ BUSINESS!!!!!!

Anyways, we get on the road where he begins the same nonsense from the previous night’s attempt, UGHHH , STOP, MOVE, DANG DUDE, STOP, LAY DOWN, STAND UP, BE STILL, GO HERE, LAY THERE, OH MY GOD, UHHHH YA’LL GETTIN ON MY NERVES, BREATHE HARD, OH MY GOD, UGHHH, STOP, LAY, SIT, GO, UGHHHHHHHH!!!!! THE ENTIRE WAY, but wait he wasn’t finished, he has NEVER been to my home state before nor the adjoining state in between so as soon as we ran into road construction in the first state he’s NEVER been to before, OH MY GOD DID HE HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, at this point I’m thinking, “You’re kidding me right? How dare you speak negative of a place you’ve never been, HOW DARE THEY HAVE CONSTRUCTION ON THEIR ROADS JUST LIKE THEY DO IN HIS PRECIOUS CALIFORNIA!!( He compares everything to California and what they do and do not have according to him and his values)” while he’s going on and on about the ignorance of the state.

We got through the first state rollin, rollin, rollin, then HOW DARE WE ARRIVE IN MY HOME STATE IN THE MIDDLE OF ROAD CONSTRUCTION, HERE WE GO AGAAAAAIIIIINNNNNNN (CALGON TAKE ME AWAYYYYYYYY)LOL Finally, I LOST IT, I TOLD HIM OFF SOMETHING TERRIBLE, I LET HIM KNOW TO STOP THE NEGATIVE TALK ABOUT MY HOME STATE AND ALL STATES IN BETWEEN, YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO THEM, YOU KNOW NOTHING OF WHAT’S GOING IN THEM NOR THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN THEM SO SHUT UP ABOUT IT ALREADY!!!! He shut his mouth, left the puppies alone the  rest of the trip until we arrive at my mom’s house. Once we arrived at mama’s house he started acting like himself again doing work for my mom around the house, talking and chatting about politics. (they share the same political belief) (I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing yet)LOL but they got along just fine, she loves My David and offered us advice on grace and patience in marriage among other things, laughing along the way. We took her out to dinner before ending our day we picked up his cake, went to our room with our puppies and went to sleep for the night!!

The departure day began just like the trip began, HE’S HEM HAWIN’ AROUND ABOUT PETTY STUFF trying to get me started, I told him we were NOT going to do this again so we prayed, apologized, and picked up our daughter from mama saying our goodbyes before hitting the road to come home. I re-positioned the dogs in the hatch back making them as comfortable as possible so that he won’t start irking my nerves again. He started out driving but got sleepy so I drove the entire trip basically AND I WASN’T HAPPY ABOUT IT BECAUSE I HATE DRIVING!!!!! I made the sacrifice for him because in spite of him aggravating me he’s a wonderful and caring man who spoke to my heart from DAY ONE and continues to this day although he’s not perfect, I know he loves me and I love him, we’re still working on our individual issues so that we can be a better MAN AND WOMAN for each other in our marriage.

At my age I know love is not just about butterflies in the stomach, roses, peaches and cream with smiles on our faces, LOVE IS HARD WORK, MARRIAGE IS HARD WORK, TWO PEOPLE HAVE TO LEARN TO COMPROMISE AND COMMUNICATE WHAT THEY NEED AND WANT FROM THEIR MATE so we’re working on ourselves individually/together BEFORE WE WALK DOWN THE AISLE BECAUSE I TOLD THE LORD I’M ONLY GETTING MARRIED ONE TIME AND MY DAVID IS THE MAN WHO FOUND ME AFTER ALL THESE YEARS!!! I love him soooooo much, he’s my hero in many ways that have nothing to do with his paycheck AND he loves me too. We’re in this for the long haul, we’re continuing counseling with our Pastor before, during, and after our marriage because a marriage without Godly counsel is DOOMED TO FAIL AND THE GOD I SERVE IS NOT NOR WILL HE EVER BE A FAILURE!!! He says ” I am the Alpha and Omega the beginning and the end.

He IS OUR BEGINNING, HE’S THE REASON WE’RE TOGETHER and we will strive to keep God number 1 in our lives in order to be happy and feel complete in each other and most of all in HIM. LADIES, YOU CAN’T BE FOUND IF YOU’RE OUT LOOKING, I HAD TO SIT DOWN TO BE FOUND and the Lord blessed me for my diligence in reading his word, prayer, fasting, celibacy, and ministering in the prisons. He does reward our efforts in spite of our failures as long as we stay faithful in Him by relying on Him to lead, guide, and direct us to the path He has set for us according to His will. My trip was a success, My David and I are communicating better, we’ve apologized for the weekend and have moved forward taking care of each other, we’re excited to finally become MAN AND WIFE, we’re still remaining celibate until our wedding night and getting settled in our new home.

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME AND ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD,…………. WHEN U TRUST HIM! Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. Amen Take care my peeps be blessed all day every day.

 

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HEY MY PEEEPS I MISSED YA’LL WHILE I WAS OFFLINE, I’VE BEEN BUSY WITH MOVING, PLANNING TWO WEDDING CEREMONIES, AND WORKING EARLY VOTING JUST AS I’VE DONE THE PAST TWO OR THREE YEARS. ALL I CAN SAY IS “MY PEOPLE MUST DO BETTA”

I’m always looking forward to working early voting because of the connection I have with staff and the regular voters, my precinct has a lot of voters who are senior citizens who will make sure they vote come hell or high water, it doesn’t matter if they have to go on scooters, walkers, or canes, they were black, white, Asian, and Muslim, I was proud to see them coming in the door. What I didn’t like was the ignorance of the younger middle aged voters (particularly the black ones) who once again showed their ignorance as soon as they walked through the doors. They had no idea who the candidates were, they couldn’t spell or remember their names, they asked which candidates were black, and who did I vote for as if I was going to answer them.

On top of that they had the nerve to be upset about the change with the new machines, complaining how they like the old machines better while asking me why the change? I told them “since they were complaining about Russia, Russia, Russia interfering in our election thanks to that dern TRUMP they had to change them to make sure their vote is secure, and these people believed every word I said even though I was laughing the entire time but they believed me anyway WOWWWW MY PEOPLE MUST DO BETTA!!! We as a race will fall for anything someone tells us, especially if they’re famous, these black celebrities are just as complicit in the destruction of our race as they claim white people are and the system they set up to perform to totally annihilate us from the earth.

I  had the chance to confront a Senator about he not getting anything done in his community since he was elected almost 1 year 1/2 ago, the residents who voted him in are now complaining about how they’re being ignored by politicians year after year, decade after decade, century after century BUT THEY CONTINUE TO VOTE FOR THE SAME LYIN’ PEOPLE EVERY ELECTION!!! WHAT’S THE DEFINITION OF STUPIDITY???? Of course he tried to make excuses for the fact that he has accomplished NOTHING and has NO DESIRE TO HELP HIS COMMUNITY AT ALL!! I shut him down before he began because I’M NOT TRYIN’ TO HEAR IT!! I told him I was tired of black politicians like he and others, male or female coming into the community with their divisive rhetoric playing with our emotions and patronizing us knowing the majority of the voters DON’T HAVE A CLUE WHAT THAT PERSON IS TALKING ABOUT SO I WASN’T TRYIN’ TO HEAR ANY OF THIS NONSENSE FROM HIM, he just walked away from being stunned at my NERVE AND MY WORDS!!! I DIDN’T CARE THOUGH!! LOL

I also approached a potential councilman whose running for a seat, I asked him “WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO IF YOU WIN YOUR COUNCIL SEAT TO HELP THE BLACK COMMUNITY YOU’RE BEGGING VOTES FROM?” He immediately played THE RACE CARD stating the MAN is keeping us down and we must fight against them, I interrupted him saying “I’M NOT TRYNNA HEAR THAT (YES I SAID TRYNNA CAUSE I’M DONE WITH THE RACE CARD AND MANIPULATION) THERE ARE BLACK PEOPLE WHO’RE TRYIN’ TO BRING US DOWN SO LET’S NOT INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE WITH THIS STUFF AND AGAIN, I’M TIRED OF YOU BLACK POLITICIANS COMING TO US BEGGIN FOR OUR VOTE THEN ONCE IN OFFICE YOU TURN YOUR BACKS TO THE VERY PEOPLE WHO ELECTED YOU SO, “WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?” ALL HE COULD SAY WAS “AMEN MY SISTER” as I walked him to his voting machine to vote. I was so disgusted by his remark, or lack of  response because he just proved my point concerning the problems I have with black politicians.

Black politicians who DO THE WHITE MAN’S BIDDIN’ are far more worse than the so called WHITE MAN because at least we can see the white man comin’ where as the black politician comes around only during election time SLICK, SLIMY AND LYIN’ manipulating our people by offering free food and drinks in order to persuade them to vote, playin’ the race card claiming the white man is evil and against us on every level and YET THEY LIVE IN THE SAME NEIGHBORHOODS WITH THE EVIL RICH WHITE MAN, making backdoor deals and policy claiming to help bring them out of poverty by providing free housing, food stamps, clothing, cash aid, WIC etc… and in turn providing these things the people are convinced they’re free because they lack the understanding of how things really work in the REAL WORLD.

The people aren’t noticing the STRINGS THEY’VE ATTACHED TO THOSE SERVICES IN ORDER TO KEEP THEM IN BONDAGE WITH HELP FROM BLACK POLITICIANS PROMISING TO BE THEIR LORD AND SAVIOR instead of JESUS CHRIST!! MY PEOPLE MUST DO BETTA!! I work with seniors for a living, I take care of them on a personal level, my current client whom I call Papa is giving me away at my wedding next month, and I enjoy listening to their family history attempting to learn from the mistakes of the past so imagine my shock and anger at the ignorance of my people who’re embracing Socialism as Prince Charming and bashing Capitalism as the evil step sister/mother. Thanks to these Hollywood Celebs, athletes, singers, the media and countless others have crammed it into our heads for the last 20 plus years in order to influence the younger generation while recruiting them to be Socialist. MY PEOPLE MUST DO BETTA, WE MUST DO OUR RESEARCH, WE RESEARCH THINGS THAT PERTAIN TO NONSENSE but not the candidates who we’re TRUSTING TO TAKE CARE OF US FOR OUR VOTE.

I challenge my people to GET IT TOGETHER, DO YOUR RESEARCH, GET OUT OF YOUR FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS AND PUT ON YOUR LOGIC HAT, VOTE ACCORDING TO GOD’S WORD AND STANDARD HE SO WONDERFULLY SET FOR US TO FOLLOW AND YOU WILL NEVER GO WRONG OR REGRET YOUR DECISION. We have early voting again in a couple weeks so I will re boot as long as I can until I have to go back into the ENEMY CAMP LOL where a Trump Supporter is considered PUBLIC ENEMY NUMBER ONE!!! My people will continue with the whining and hatred of ALL THINGS TRUMP, never mind most of the ones talking crap were once either on his show the Apprentice or trying to get on it in order to jumpstart their careers and yet he’s racist, evil, stupid, hate monger, GO FIGURE!!! MY PEOPLE MUST DO BETTA, if I get the chance to confront a potential candidate about his views and work ethics I WILL BECAUSE I’M TIRED, ARE YOU???

My husband TO BE was great the entire week, he was very supportive and filled in the gap for me concerning pickup/drop off of our daughter to work and back. He tried to leave me alone once I got home but then he picked the wrong time to say something STUPID TO SET ME OFF!! He failed to understand at the time why I was so angry and tense each day after the polls closed, he failed to realize how difficult it is to get the NEGATIVE WORDS out my head because I can’t respond to the whiny complaint from the voters WHO HAS NO CLUE ABOUT THE CANDIDATE. I’m grateful for his support he did the very best he could and I love him for it. MY PEOPLE WE MUST DO BETTA!!!!

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation in my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. Amen  BE BLEDDED MY PEEPS

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PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW AS A TEEN UNTIL NOW I’VE ALWAYS LOVED MOTORCYCLES, I LOVE THE AIR BLOWING IN MY FACE CRUISING DOWN THE ROAD AT SPEEDS TOPPING 80MPH, FORTUNATELY MY DAVID HAS A HARLEY, WE RIDE ON THE WEEKENDS, I LOVE THE FACT THAT WE HAVE THAT IN COMMON, IT PROVES GOD KNEW THE TYPE OF MAN I DESIRED IN MY HEART AND AS I SAT STILL WORKING MY SALVATION WITH FEAR AND TREMBLING, AND PREPARING MYSELF TO BE FOUND, SO ONCE I SAT DOWN, I WAS FOUND!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!

Hey my peeps I pray all is well with you, God is still in the blessing business, I’m preparing to move into my very first home where I know the Lord led us on our way to premarital counseling with our Pastor. He worked out everything in our favor in a 4 hour period, (there He is with those 2’s again, He always blesses me in 2’s) and He’s continuing to bless our commitment to Him and to each other in ways I could never have imagined. He’s blessing us both, my David is getting calls for construction work daily he’s had to contract out to others because his regular gig has him tied up during the week, on top of our other commitments to jail ministry, AA/CA sponsoring, and church AND WE’RE STILL REMAINING CELIBATE UNTIL OUR WEDDING NIGHT! It’s mandatory that we wait and not disappoint God, Jesus, and to grieve the Holy Spirit by fornicating, we’re on one accord with this decision, my David is such an honorable, caring, loving, and respectful man.

Although at times I feel like he goes overboard with the dogs, I know he adores me, more importantly I feel he loves and adores me in his heart he’s really making an effort to be less selfish and more selfless in his interactions with me and I love him for it. We’re so excited about moving into the house, our wedding date is in a month so we’re preparing for that too, the Lord has given us both A NEW BEGINNING IN THE MIDST OF ENDINGS. I have PTSD from being sexually assaulted 3 times in the military among other issues of daily and have applied for disability from the military for compensation for it almost 5 months ago and I got the letter 2 days ago (THOSE 2’S AGAIN) approving my disability and the payments I’ll receive for the rest of my life in the mail, I was sooooo happy I immediately began to pray to God thanking Him for blessing me and crying for about 5 mins as I continued to thank Him and remain in AWE of Him and His AWESOMENESS, HE’S A TRULY AWESOME GOD!!

He knows what I need better than I know myself, the book of Joel 2:25 says, “I will repay you for the years the locust have eaten, the cankerworm and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army that I sent against you. KJV and God is doing that very thing by restoring my peace of mind through trials and tribulations, hurts and pains, I’m increasing my faith and understanding in Him and His inner workings in my life although I hate trials/tribulations, I’ve learned to welcome them in order to learn what I need to in order to increase my faith and dependence on the Lord. He’s also restoring all the monies I’ve spent over the years fighting for custody of my daughter and child support I still pay to this day, the Lord knows the desires of my heart, He’s rewarding my effort in trying to live a holy life before Him both me and My David.

I attended a rally for one of our Mayoral candidates yesterday before work, the candidate arrived before the debate and greeted us her supporters with hugs and thanks for our support, I took pics with her, she’s the best choice for mayor as far as I’m concerned, and as she was leaving for the debate I approached her once again this time asking her if I can pray for her as I’m whispering in her ear, one of the other supporters  overheard our conversation and decided to join in with the other supporters as I prayed for the Lord to lead, guide, and protect her from the nonsense she’s going through running for office, the demonic forces trying to stop her message from being heard and the courage to stand firm regardless of the pressure, “for we know that all things work together for the good to those who love the Lord and are THE CALLED according to HIS purpose.” Romans 8:28 I prayed we know when He calls you for a job, He’s prepared you ahead of time for it and He never half steps and neither will we so we thank you Lord God for her victory in advanced and we’ll give you all the praise, the glory, and the honor, in Jesus’ name Amen. She really appreciated the prayer as did her supporters as I departed to go to work.

My candidate walked over to the competition’s supporters shaking their hands and they treated her as if she had a plague or something, they weren’t very welcoming I noticed she wasn’t there very long (SO MUCH FOR EQUALITY AND TOLERANCE) (MY CANDIDATE IS BLACK AND FEMALE)!! I’m not shocked at all people are really hypocritical these days it didn’t seem to bother her and that’s why I prayed for all that negativity to be gone from around her, I was truly honored to have been given the opportunity to pray for her, she’s someone I met years ago at a tea party rally I was impressed with her life’s story, she’s a Christian so I must pray for her and all who serve public office simply because we’re all God’s children no matter the political party or religious belief or lack of.

My upcoming wedding and move to my very first home is a new beginning for me, I’m continuing my therapy trying to heal from my pasts hurts in order to be a good wife for my husband to be and that will continue well into my New Beginning until he becomes and Old Ending FOR GOOD!! My session was tough again this week, I’m seeing more images of the assaults in my mind and I’m ANGRY ABOUT BEING VIOLATED ONCE AGAIN. This memory is the first of 3, I’ve suppressed all feelings and emotions of it all these years and I’m now strong enough to allow them to come out so that I can begin to heal. I’m MAD AS HECK!!! I REALLY AM but I must not let the anger overtake my common sense and hurt someone who has nothing to do with anything, I’m doing that through prayer and solitude to keep me grounded throughout my days at work and beyond, He never fails.

I pray when you my followers are going through stuff, give it COMPLETELY to God, He will see you through regardless of what YOU MAY SEE, “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding, in ALL thy ways acknowledge HIM AND HE WILL DIRECT YOUR PATH.” Proverbs 3:5 Let Him be in charge of your life, He knows you better than you just like He knows me and knew when to send my husband to me and I love Him for it. LET THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE MEDITATION OF MY HEART BE ACCEPTABLE IN THY SIGHT OH LORD MY STRENGTH AND MY REDEEMER.

I want to thank all of you who’re following me, please feel free to invite others to follow me especially those who need help in the way I can help. God bless all of you

 

 

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HEY MY PEEPS I PRAY YA’LL ARE WELL, I’VE LEARNED OVER THE YEARS THAT LIFE IS ONE BIG RACE, SOME DAYS YOU’RE AT TOP SPEED, OTHER DAYS YOU’RE AT A SNAILS PACE BUT THROUGH IT ALL YOU MUST KEEP MOVING PUTTING ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER UNTIL YOU REACH THE FINISH LINE!!!

I’ve been extremely busy planning my wedding, it’s been fun yet challenging we’re also looking for a house, completing counseling sessions with our Pastor, getting his business up and running consistently while dealing with unprofessional, lazy, whiny, smart aleck men who go to work telling the boss what they will and will not do as soon as they arrive (usually late and hung over from the previous days activities) putting My David’s gig at risk and WE’RE NOT HAVIN’ THAT! We’ve had to fire an employee refusing to follow directions he’s been blowing up my baby’s phone for days trying to get his job back and finally after a week he was humbled enough to accept and follow the rules so my David set up a meeting with him to meet the following day to talk but he never showed up so now he’s OUT!! FOR GOOD!!

We’ve been looking for a house for months now, we saw a beautiful one with plenty space but it fell through and I was a little disappointed but accepted the decision the owner made because I KNOW THE GOD I SERVE AND WHEN HE CLOSES ONE DOOR HE ALWAYS OPENS ANOTHER ONE!! I’ve learned first hand over the years to not doubt God nor His inner workings in MY LIFE. We were turned down on Monday, and on Wednesday we were riding the motorcycle to our marriage counseling session with our Pastor when we saw 2 homes for rent owned by the same person so I wrote number down to call the next day. I did call the owner the following day to set up a day to see the house and we set it for the coming Sunday.

We hit it off well with the owner from the beginning, the bible says “For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly. Psalms 84:11. When you walk uprightly before Him according to His word even when you stumble, as long as you get back up and repent He will continue to bless your sincerity and here He did that very thing. The owner is an immigrant from England, we talked of how he’s surprised that Americans are falling for this Socialist agenda the Dems are pushing these days, he moved from England because the government ran the lives of the citizens like a dictator with crime and poverty rates the highest it’s been ever AND YET WE ATTEMPTING TO ADOPT THAT AGENDA HERE IN THE UNITED STATES, UHHHH NOOOOO!!!! My David and I really loved the house, we actually love it more than we did the first one we saw, it’s not as big as the first one but it is perfect for us and of course God knew that all along.

There were others looking at the house so the owner promised to call us later in the day as to whether we’ll get the house or not so as we waited we decided to go do an estimate for a potential construction job for friends of ours and while there we received the call from the owner of the house stating “he would be honored if I’d rent his house”, I thanked God before thanking him for giving us the chance to rent this house. We are so happy to finally be rid of this issue, it’s been quite challenging but we were determined not to give up. We prayed together concerning the house God blessed our efforts and dedication to Him and His word. He’s faithful to His children and knows what’s best for us, He rewarded our faithfulness because we’re determined to honor our upcoming marriage by sustaining from sex until our wedding night, we pay our tithes and offerings FAITHFULLY, we minister to men and women addicts, alcoholics, and prostitutes in jail weekly, and attend bible studies with AA/CA members every Saturday.

We’re busy doing the Lord’s work and He’s busy with ours, He’s blessing us so much right now that we have no room to receive. We were blessed with a washer/dryer THE NEXT DAY after getting approved for the house, I was talking to a minister friend early Monday morning, he’s a plumber by trade and went to work on a house where the couple was ready to donate the washer/dryer to Habitat house, my friend suggested they donate to us AND THEY DID 6 hours later so my friend delivered it to the house yesterday hooked it for us and now we’re set. God has always blessed me in 2″s. I mentioned that in one of my previous posts and He just proved it in a matter of a couple weeks by blessing me with my house after 2 separate showings, (there’s those 2’s again).

My David prayed for 2 months before knocking on my door to plead his case, he came by 2 times prior but I wasn’t home, he told me I was going to be is wife the 2nd day after we initially talked on the phone, we looked for rings 2 weeks after that putting them on layaway but 2 days later he got them out and placed the SET ON MY FINGER SAYING IN HIS HEART WE ARE ALREADY MARRIED! We were turned down for the first house on Monday and Wednesday we saw the 2nd house we wanted to rent AND THAT 2ND house we were approved for, WAS THAT NOT GOD WORKING IT OUT FOR US OR WHAT????? HE SHOWED UP AND SHOWED OUT AS USUAL HE IS OUR KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS OUR JEHOVAH JIREH (OUR PROVIDER)!!

By the way, on the same Monday I was at work and received a call from the office asking me to come for a meeting, when I arrived they gave me this cup to drug test me because a co-worker whom I was developing a friendship with or so I thought told them I was doing drugs when he came to relieve me of my shift. I took the test willingly and excitingly and PASSED WITH FLYING COLORS, I knew I would pass,  but my thing is that if the co-worker had any concern or questions he could’ve asked me while I was there in his face instead of going behind my back calling the office. I was more hurt than angry because AGAIN I thought we were cooler than that after all, I trained him when he first started and offered him my food and drinks if he didn’t have any with him that day, I greeted him with hugs every time we saw each other and THAT DAY I offered my food to him before I left work for that day and he does this to me, WOW!!!

It’s all good though because I knew I had nothing to hide, I don’t hold grudges. it’s against my nature, it’s not necessary because the bible says Vengeance is Mine saith the Lord God and I will repay says the Lord of hosts so I will let Him avenge me and my reputation with my job. Thanks to my co-worker I’m now wandering if they’ll ever look at me the same again or will they want to test me more often simply because the seed has been planted. That’s the problem with unsubstantiated claims, once they’re out there it’s done and over with and no amount of correction or apologies will fix it, PEOPLE LOVE TO SEE OTHERS FAIL. That quickly Satan tried to throw a monkey wrench in my blessings from God but IT BACKFIRED, THE LORD ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN!!

I had to cover my co-worker’s shift today, I can’t help but wander if he decided to change it because he couldn’t face me or if the job thought it would be best considering the circumstance, either way I’m OK with it, fool me once shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. I will not let Satan stop my blessings by holding bitterness and unforgiveness in my heart towards others, it’s not the JESUS WAY of living this life and so I forgive him but I will never forget. I’m so excited for the next chapter in my life, my wedding plans are coming along great, there are no BRIDEZILLA moments at all, we’re just waiting for time to past before our BIG DAY! We’ve been working hard on our individual issues and struggles with help from our Pastor and other married Christian couples married for a long time and it has helped tremendously we’re connecting on a deeper level now, understanding each other, and learning how to communicate with each other better than we had been in the past.

We took a marriage survey before our first session and we laughed at the results because they’re so accurate and we’re learning things about ourselves we never known before. My David is such a blessing to me, he supports me 100%, he’s been supportive of my therapy for PTSD I had an emotional breakdown yesterday while bringing him lunch, he just held me quietly as I cried for 15 minutes straight until I pulled myself together long enough to go home. I felt so much love from him in that moment I am a truly blessed woman and I promise the Lord I will take care of him as my husband forever!! I hope everyone had a Happy Independence Day, I celebrate Independence Day every day in Jesus Christ, through His blood by dying on the cross I AM FREE and the word says, “He who the Son sets free is free indeed so learn to enjoy your freedom in the Lord.

He has given me a new beginning in life now and I will take FULL ADVANTAGE by ridding myself of past hurts, pains, and betrayals through forgiveness from God. A new beginning is within my reach I must continue to evolve and change into the kingdom woman God has made me to be for my kingdom husband, I must continue to run this race in life God has given me, the good and the bad of it, I love my David with all my heart, he’s worth the effort and worthy of my love as I AM HIS, HOW EXCITING!!!  Let the words of my mouth and meditation in my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. BE BLESSED MY PEEPS FOREVER AND A DAY

 

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I’M A BIG FAN OF THE ARTS, I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN SINCE I WAS YOUNG. I LOVE THE GRACE AND EASE THE DANCER DISPLAYS WITH EACH MOVE THEY MAKE. I ENVIED THOSE WHO COULD FLIP AND TUMBLE WITH SUCH EASE AND WISHED IT COULD BE ME BUT IT NEVER WAS…………..UNTIL NOW

Hey my peeps I know it’s been a minute since my last post, I’m in the middle of planning my wedding, looking for a house to move into with my new husband, signing up to care for a Down Syndrome young lady in my home, my daughter is TRIPPIN’ AND SMELLIN’ HERSELF HERE AS OF LATE, PTSD therapy sessions, working, jail ministry with my church and through the mail, AND PREMARITAL COUNSELING WITH MY PASTOR. Yes, I have that much going on right now and it’s been quite overwhelming. My David and I are continuing to work on our issues, we’ve grown in some areas and have stalled in others so we know how much more work we need to do in order to have a successful marriage. We had a serious blowup recently because he was more concerned about his dog’s well being than he was mine, this is what happened, we were transporting our dogs to our city home for the weekend like we’ve always done and mammas decides to bark and boo boo in my car while I’m driving, David began consoling her trying to calm her down not paying any attention to my needs and feelings before, during, or after the road trip to the house, by this time I’m so angry I could scream!!!

I left him outside as I went into the house to pray, David really hurt my feelings, I was crying like a baby, I only cry when I’m really, really, mad so imagine the tears I was shedding while talking to the Lord about my pain. As I was praying David came in looking at me while I’m kneeling, sat in his recliner grabbing his phone in the process and scanning through it while I’m BALLIN’ uncontrollably, he never asked if I was okay or nothing he just sat there like a bump on a log while I’m crying and praying. Once I realized he wasn’t concerned about my state of mind I went to my bedroom to finish crying eventually pulling myself together before returning to the living room where David was sitting. He still hadn’t asked me how I was feeling or anything and I was growing angrier by the second so after what seemed like eternity, I decided to let him know how I felt about him and his dogs at that moment.

In a calm voice I told him how I felt disconnected from him giving the dogs more affection than he does me, how that makes me feel and what I wasn’t going to put up with. He tends to put his family, the dogs, and his AA members and their needs before mine he’s been doing it since we first got together and I’ve not said anything because I didn’t want to come across as anti family and anti animal lover because neither is further from the truth but I was at my breaking point on this day so I politely communicated by feelings to him, I refused to hear any excuses, or comments, I just needed him TO LISTEN, NOT JUST HEAR ME!! I refused to allow him to comment, he was forced to sit through almost an hour of lectures from me concerning WHAT I NEED FROM HIM AS MY HUSBAND to feel complete and appreciated. I felt as if I was giving him 100 percent of my feelings and time but only receiving 33 1/3 from him after he divided his concern between his family and 2 dogs. He babies those dogs, treating them like they’re newborns they can’t be dirty, hot, cold, hungry, or in the dark, if they become any of these things HE HAS A COW OR BUFFALO until he fix the matter.

It’s extremely frustrating to see him acting this way considering HE CAME TO ME interested in a relationship with me and in doing that he should’ve been ready for the sacrifices he must make when being in one. I’m ready and willing to sacrifice whatever I needed to in order to make my husband happy and feeling appreciated. I can only pray for us to put more focus on pleasing each other instead of others and we’ll be okay.

I also got to teach my first message at the women’s prison service, it was really fun, I wasn’t nervous at all, I was excited to finally get to speak. I’ve been involved with jail ministry most f my adult life, my mom was the director of prison fellowship for years that’s how I became involved. The ladies were very attentive to my message, they never talked the whole time nor did they leave the room to use the bathroom, I TRANSFORMED INTO TUPAC SHAKUR when he felt as if ALL EYEZ ON ME, all the ladies’ eyes were focused on me and the words the Lord was giving me to say to them, of course I added a little humor to the mix, after all God does have a sense of humor and I love making people laugh. My message lasted an hour, the ladies didn’t want me to stop but I had to follow the rules as not to be kicked out of the program, my title was ENDURING YOUR RACE, it was about not giving up on this wonderful life no matter how hard or difficult it gets, you must put your head down, pray, read the bible, fast, and GET TO STEPPIN’. I’m still enduring my race but now I have more help to deal with it than before. Thank you God for sending my HELPMEET to me.

David was blessed with a full time gig. He works salary and gets paid weekly. We’re planning on buying a lot to build our house on in a couple years, David will do the work, PLUS HE’S GETTING CALLS FOR EXTRA WORK HE NOW HAS TO FIND TIME TO DO, ever since we decided to live our relationship according to God’s word by praying daily, attending church weekly, paying tithes and offerings, bible studies with fellow AA members, and BEING CELIBATE HE HAS CONTINUED TO BLESS US IN WAYS THAT WE HAVE NO ROOM ENOUGH TO RECEIVE. He’s been faithful to us and the effort we’re putting into living a holy and Godly lifestyle, it hasn’t been easy WALKING BY FAITH, at times we wandered if the phone would ever ring again asking him to fix a house AND IT HAS, HE JUST CALLED TO TELL ME ANOTHER COUPLE WANTS HIM TO DO WORK FOR THEM when he’s available, ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK YOU JESUS FOR BLESSING AND LOVING US even when we’re not perfect.

The wedding plans are coming along great, everything is falling into place, I have no doubt it’s the Lord and His love for us. All the years the devil has stolen my PEACE, JOY, SLEEP, MONEY, AND MY MIND, God is now blessing me with what the cankerworms Satan has stolen from me since I was 9 years old financially, emotionally, and mentally and I couldn’t be happier. The Lord loves us so much, He wants to bless us with the desires of our hearts but we must DO OUR PART BY FOCUSING ON THE JOB HE CREATED US TO COMPLETE in winning souls to the kingdom before Jesus’ return. I’m looking forward to the next time I teach at the prison, I LOVE PRISON MINISTRY THANK YOU GOD FOR THE GIFT OF MINISTRY AND HELPS may I do this to the glory of God. My therapy sessions are going great too, I’m feeling better and better each week I get to attend, I’m tired of living in bondage from my past, I want to be FREE FROM BONDAGE AND I WILL BE FREE in Christ Jesus OUR LORD.

We had our first premarital counseling session with our pastor, it went very well and we’re both looking forward to the next session. We answered questions from a program called PREPARE/ENRICH for married couples to get an idea on where we struggle individually and as a couple. I learned a lot about myself, the GOOD AND THE BAD, I’m so glad MY DAVID loves me enough to not leave me no matter my flaws. We’re taking full advantage of the time we have with our pastor, he has a successful God filled marriage and we want a successful God filled marriage so we’re taking notes, asking questions, and listening to each other to make sure we’re changing for the better. I AM SO HAPPY, I NEVER THOUGHT I’D BE THIS HAPPY after all the hurt and pain I’m still experiencing I’m going to enjoy it and my David for as long as I can. My daughter’s mouth is going to get her A TRIP TO THE DENTIST IF SHE DOESN’T WATCH IT, she made me so mad talking back and disrespecting me I came real close to PUNCHING HER IN THE THOAT!! (Not throat) but cooler heads prevailed so I avoided any contact with her until she began to reflect on her bad behavior and apologize for disrespecting me talking back and smart aleck to me.

In spite of the drama the Lord is still blessing me, HE CAN BLESS YOU TOO BUT YOU MUST DO YOUR PART SO THAT HE CAN DO HIS, start by repenting of your sins, crying out to the Lord for forgiveness and turning away from THE SINS THAT SO EASILY BESET US, HE WILL FORGIVE YOU AND BLESS YOU ACCORDINGLY. My husband and I will remain faithful to Him, IT’S MANDATORY, in order for us to continue to enjoy God’s blessings, HE WILL DO IT FOR YOU IF YOU LET HIM. Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer, THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME EVEN WHEN I’M NOT ACTING LOVABLE AND BY ANSWERING MY TEENAGE PRAYER OF SENDING “MY DAVID” MY HELPMEET to me to LOVE, HONOR, RESPECT, AND OBEY UNTIL DEATH DO US PART, YES I SAID OBEY!!!! We must OBEY someone as long as you live on this earth so why not start while you can on your own terms instead of being FORCED TO OBEY!!! I love you Lord, I love my daughter, and I love my David thank you for allowing me to dance in you presence with thanksgiving and love. You gave me the love of dance and I will dance to your glory. Be blessed today and always my peeps AND DANCE, DANCE, DANCE!!