HEY MY PEEPS, I HAD THE BEST WEEKEND AFTER THE DRAMA THE OTHER DAY, MY DAVID AND I HOSTED A DINNER PARTY AMONG OTHER THINGS, THEN EVERYTHING WENT DOWNHILL AND BACK TO DRAMA ON MONDAY.
My weekend started with REVIVAL SERVICE at the women’s prison, I participate twice a month with my church in jail ministry for men and women, it’s such a rewarding experience witnessing to the women, they remind me so much of myself behind those bars ( I was once incarcerated). We were having a revival on Friday and Saturday, the Saturday afternoon service was cancelled for bogus reasons, they claimed the doors were broken that leads us to the chapel and had us waiting in the hallway for over an hour before they finally told us we had to leave, mind you, there were other services including Muslim services next to our chapel who were allowed to come in and out of different doors than my church was allowed to, the Muslim service was held next door to ours so we thought nothing of seeing them coming from the direction of the chapel at the end of their session. We were discriminated against simply because we were Christians, our ladies were disappointed as well because they were waiting in the chapel for us to arrive, we were looking at each other through the window of the (so called) locked doors and were turned away.
One of the volunteers use to be in charge of the church aspect of the prisons for years so he made one phone call and IT WAS ON AND POPPIN’ they assured us that we were having the evening service no matter what!!! TAKE THAT SATAN. The evening service was JAMMED PACKED STANDING ROOM ONLY, THERE WERE AT LEAST 20 VOLUNTEERS INCLUDING MY PASTOR, HIS WIFE, THE INMATES FILLED UP THE CHAPEL I WAS SO HAPPY AND BLESSED TO SEE THEM AND WITNESS THEIR EXCITEMENT WHEN OUR EYES MEET AND HUGS ARE SHARED, IT’S AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE I LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY WEEK. The praise and worship team got it started, we were praising the Lord like it was no tomorrow, our pastor spoke on heaven and how we need to be more focused on taking others to heaven with us instead of all the nonsense we allow to overtake our lives daily causing us to make choices we would normally not make. The book of James 4:14 says whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appeareth for a little time and then vanisheth away, pastor Roy stated that LIFE IS NOTHING BUT A VAPOR SO WHEN TROUBLES COMES PUT YOUR HAND IN THE AIR LIKE YOUR SPRAYING A CAN AND SAY VAPOR AS YOU PRESS THE BUTTON!! The ladies loved that gesture they were so inspired to live better even while in prison, I for one knows how difficult that can be but I’m encouraged that some will be okay once they are released. There were 10 ladies who were baptized and the others stayed with us in the chapel where we sang, laughed, and prayed for the ladies, the Holy Spirit was in the place, He was flowing all other the ladies it was POWERFUL!!!
The next day my church had our picnic on property we just purchased next door to the church, we had a great time fellowshipping with the others, there were games, food, and golf cart rides around the property, I was running, playing volleyball, pushups, and handstands trying to get my workout on, I’m definitely payin’ for it TODAY. After church David and I hosted a dinner party with a couple he sponsors through AA, they meet weekly for an hour to discuss the 12 step book among other things, yesterday I cooked dinner for them as the food was cooking we began a discussion on demon spirits and their demonic influence on peoples lives, our friends told us they had to put a roommate out because she was TWEEKING ON DRUGS, the night before our friend said he was awaken from sleep by a gray shadowy figure flying across his face, he thought he was dreaming but he saw it again flying the opposite direction. I told him it was demon spirits and that they needed to cast the demons out of their apartment by anointing everything in the house with oil AND pleading the blood of Jesus over it in the process, it will bring a peace and calmness to their home. We had a wonderful talk about the bible before the AA session so his girlfriend and I looked at wedding stuff and my dress while they conversed for the next hour.
We had dinner, talked for a few minutes then they left on the motorcycle, David and I took our dogs back to the country house where I stayed til this morning, WHAT DID I DO THAT FOR? DAVID’S NEPHEW SAW MY CAR AND DECIDED TO SEND HIM A LONG TEXT MESSAGE ON HIS SELF IMPOSED RELIGIOUS (KEY WORD RELIGIOUS) HYPOCRITICAL PEDESTAL SPEWING ANGER, RESENTMENT, AND BITTERNESS HE’S HELD ONTO SINCE LAST WEEK BASICALLY UNWELCOMING ME AT THE COUNTRY HOME IN WHICH HIS MOM ( DAVID’S SISTER THE ONE I’VE BENT OVER BACKWARDS TO HELP SINCE SHE BROKE HER LEG AND HUSBAND DIED) HAS GIVEN HIM SAY SO OVER, now I’m REALLY NOT COMFORTABLE ANYWHERE NEAR THAT HOUSE AND I WONT BE RETURNING,,,, EVER!!!
I refuse to go anywhere on the property, I’m not comfortable now, I didn’t think his sister would’ve let her son tell her what to do but not only has she done that very thing BUT SHE TRIED TO MAKE EXCUSES FOR HIM AND I WASN’T HAVIN’ OR HEARIN’ ANY OF IT AT THIS POINT. I hate that it has come to this so I decided not to return to the property so that David wont be stuck in the middle or forced to choose sides between me and his family. I know it hurt him to know I wont be coming out there anymore, he loves his family and he loves me too this will not affect our relationship or marriage I refuse to allow it, I love him and I love the Lord, He brought us together and He will separate us. David’s nephew NEEDS TO GET HIM SOME BUSINESS, he also needs to do some serious soul searching on a spiritual tip, he needs prayer, the bible, THE FATHER, SON, & HOLY GHOST in order to get right, he has nerve to try to past judgement on David and myself, he’s acting quite WIMPY to me, he reminds me a lot of these men nowadays who act like wussies at every turn, VERY THIN SKINNED, HE CAN DISH IT BUT CAN’T TAKE IT, HE REALIZED THAT ONCE I STOOD MY GROUND WHILE HE WAS IN MY SPACE BUBBLE. I will never see him the same, he has revealed himself to me and I see him no different than his wife, she’s on my HANDLE WITH A LONG HANDLED SPOON LIST ALONG WITH HER HUSBAND. Those types of people will drain you spiritually, the best thing to do is avoid them BUT PRAY FOR THEM, they definitely need it.
David and I will continue to grow together in the Lord, His word, and in each other and we will never stop!!! FORGIVENESS IS THE KEY, WISDOM IS DOOR, IT IS WISE TO FORGIVE BUT NOT FORGET, you learn from your past mistakes, I’m still learning THANK GOD. Let the words of my mouth and the meditation in my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. BE BLESSED ALL DAY EVERY DAY