GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD, HE’S ALWAYS WORKING OUT OUR PROBLEMS FOR US BEHIND THE SCENES, JUST WHEN YOU THINK ALL IS LOST, HE STEPS IN, SHOWS UP, AND SHOWS OUT!!!
Today was a beautiful day, it was 80 days with a mild breeze, I decided to go for a run before going to the gym, after almost 2 hours total of both I went home to relax before work later in the evening. I was watching TV when I heard a voice I hadn’t heard in 2 months from outside my window, I thought I was hearing things at first but as the voice got closer to my door, I hear someone saying Miss Beesh Miss Beesh and as they approached my door I see my former neighbor who use to take advantage of My David when he was liking her and trying to have a relationship with her but she wasn’t interested so he stopped trying. 2 months later, after praying to God for guidance, he knocked on my door, plead his case, spoke to my heart and the rest is history!!!
My neighbor became angry with me once she found out about David and I, she hadn’t spoken to me in 2 months, we would see each other on occasion but no conversation would occur, I just saw her this past Sunday while I was walking my dog butchie, she IGGED ME (ignored) I kept a steppin’ without a second glance so imagine my surprise when she shows up at my door with her son whom I MISS TERRIBLY because I’ve been watching him since a week after he was born and he’s 2 now. I hadn’t seen him in a while, my neighbor lost temporary custody of he and his siblings over some mess so seeing him after all these months MADE MY DAY! He’s gotten so big, he still remembered me and after his initial chilling reception I got my SWEET HUGS AND KISSES FROM MY BABY BOY I am so happy I got to see him and his mom, I invited her into the house, we talked about the kids and how she was doing, she looked calm, happy, and excited to be feeling better, she’s been on an emotional downward spiral for the last 3 years I’ve known her.
She’s a product of selfish, self centered parents who left her and her sisters HIGH AND DRY as kids. The father left and started a new family with little to no contact with his older children for YEARS. Her mom is a recovering drug, alcoholic, and inmate who never taught her how to be a young lady, to adult woman so my neighbor has been raising her kids BY THE SEAT OF HER PANTS. She finally had an emotional breakdown, she’s on medication and will go to court to get her children back next month, I told her I was happy for her, we hugged again then as she was leaving I told her that we’ve been in each other’s lives for years and nothing or no one will come between us. She agreed as she walked down the stairs heading to her apt chasing my sweet baby boy.
I thanked God as soon as she left, I never expected her to come to my door to make amends, I’m so glad she did. I will be cautious of her because of her history with David. I trust My David and her to a point, I can’t wait to see her other 2 kids on the weekend. These past 2 months God has been working behind the scenes speaking to her heart and mind to make amends with me He always bless me in 2’s, it’s been that way all my life. He brought MY DAVID to my door in increments of 2’s, my daughter as well, and now my neighbor. Just in case you missed the backstory, my David pursued a relationship with my neighbor for months but she just used him for money and cars with promises of sex but never delivering, spending his money on boys she was actually sleeping with while leaving him hanging and dangling on a string, He finally got tired of her, left her alone and began praying to God for guidance on how to approach me.
He knocked on my door, plead his case, opened his heart to me while speaking to my heart in the process I love him more than words could say, the Lord is truly awesome and always in the blessing business, I don’t hold grudges, it’s very difficult for me and against my personality the Lord has taught me to forgive no matter, it’s not easy at times but I do it because HE REQUIRES IT!! I forgive the 2 men who sexually assaulted me and my dad and uncle too that’s why it’s easy to forgive my neighbor. I feel sorry for her, I can’t imagine living without parental guidance as a kid, I’ll keep praying for her and will stop by to see her every now and then I can’t wait to see MY CHURRINS again (the kids)
THANK YOU LORD FOR LOVE AND FORGIVENESS, PLEASE HELP ME TO FORGIVE OTHERS AND SEE THEM AS YOU SEE THEM, LET THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND MEDITATION OF MY HEART BE ACCEPTABLE IN THY SIGHT OH LORD MY STRENGTH AND MY REDEEMER. AMEN
LEARN FORGIVENESS, IT’S CRUCIAL, I RECENTLY SHARED AT A CA MEETING (COCAINE ANONYMOUS) THAT IF EVERYONE IN THE ROOM UNDERSTOOD THE REAL MEANING OF FORGIVENESS IN THE WAY GOD INTENDED THEN THE ROOM WE WERE MEETING IN WOULD BE EMPTY!! THINK ABOUT IT. Much love my peeps, thanks for your support, send me a comment if like my posts see ya’ll soon