Preacher Kid Confessions

The true story of one woman's journey in faith

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PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW AS A TEEN UNTIL NOW I’VE ALWAYS LOVED MOTORCYCLES, I LOVE THE AIR BLOWING IN MY FACE CRUISING DOWN THE ROAD AT SPEEDS TOPPING 80MPH, FORTUNATELY MY DAVID HAS A HARLEY, WE RIDE ON THE WEEKENDS, I LOVE THE FACT THAT WE HAVE THAT IN COMMON, IT PROVES GOD KNEW THE TYPE OF MAN I DESIRED IN MY HEART AND AS I SAT STILL WORKING MY SALVATION WITH FEAR AND TREMBLING, AND PREPARING MYSELF TO BE FOUND, SO ONCE I SAT DOWN, I WAS FOUND!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!

Hey my peeps I pray all is well with you, God is still in the blessing business, I’m preparing to move into my very first home where I know the Lord led us on our way to premarital counseling with our Pastor. He worked out everything in our favor in a 4 hour period, (there He is with those 2’s again, He always blesses me in 2’s) and He’s continuing to bless our commitment to Him and to each other in ways I could never have imagined. He’s blessing us both, my David is getting calls for construction work daily he’s had to contract out to others because his regular gig has him tied up during the week, on top of our other commitments to jail ministry, AA/CA sponsoring, and church AND WE’RE STILL REMAINING CELIBATE UNTIL OUR WEDDING NIGHT! It’s mandatory that we wait and not disappoint God, Jesus, and to grieve the Holy Spirit by fornicating, we’re on one accord with this decision, my David is such an honorable, caring, loving, and respectful man.

Although at times I feel like he goes overboard with the dogs, I know he adores me, more importantly I feel he loves and adores me in his heart he’s really making an effort to be less selfish and more selfless in his interactions with me and I love him for it. We’re so excited about moving into the house, our wedding date is in a month so we’re preparing for that too, the Lord has given us both A NEW BEGINNING IN THE MIDST OF ENDINGS. I have PTSD from being sexually assaulted 3 times in the military among other issues of daily and have applied for disability from the military for compensation for it almost 5 months ago and I got the letter 2 days ago (THOSE 2’S AGAIN) approving my disability and the payments I’ll receive for the rest of my life in the mail, I was sooooo happy I immediately began to pray to God thanking Him for blessing me and crying for about 5 mins as I continued to thank Him and remain in AWE of Him and His AWESOMENESS, HE’S A TRULY AWESOME GOD!!

He knows what I need better than I know myself, the book of Joel 2:25 says, “I will repay you for the years the locust have eaten, the cankerworm and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army that I sent against you. KJV and God is doing that very thing by restoring my peace of mind through trials and tribulations, hurts and pains, I’m increasing my faith and understanding in Him and His inner workings in my life although I hate trials/tribulations, I’ve learned to welcome them in order to learn what I need to in order to increase my faith and dependence on the Lord. He’s also restoring all the monies I’ve spent over the years fighting for custody of my daughter and child support I still pay to this day, the Lord knows the desires of my heart, He’s rewarding my effort in trying to live a holy life before Him both me and My David.

I attended a rally for one of our Mayoral candidates yesterday before work, the candidate arrived before the debate and greeted us her supporters with hugs and thanks for our support, I took pics with her, she’s the best choice for mayor as far as I’m concerned, and as she was leaving for the debate I approached her once again this time asking her if I can pray for her as I’m whispering in her ear, one of the other supporters  overheard our conversation and decided to join in with the other supporters as I prayed for the Lord to lead, guide, and protect her from the nonsense she’s going through running for office, the demonic forces trying to stop her message from being heard and the courage to stand firm regardless of the pressure, “for we know that all things work together for the good to those who love the Lord and are THE CALLED according to HIS purpose.” Romans 8:28 I prayed we know when He calls you for a job, He’s prepared you ahead of time for it and He never half steps and neither will we so we thank you Lord God for her victory in advanced and we’ll give you all the praise, the glory, and the honor, in Jesus’ name Amen. She really appreciated the prayer as did her supporters as I departed to go to work.

My candidate walked over to the competition’s supporters shaking their hands and they treated her as if she had a plague or something, they weren’t very welcoming I noticed she wasn’t there very long (SO MUCH FOR EQUALITY AND TOLERANCE) (MY CANDIDATE IS BLACK AND FEMALE)!! I’m not shocked at all people are really hypocritical these days it didn’t seem to bother her and that’s why I prayed for all that negativity to be gone from around her, I was truly honored to have been given the opportunity to pray for her, she’s someone I met years ago at a tea party rally I was impressed with her life’s story, she’s a Christian so I must pray for her and all who serve public office simply because we’re all God’s children no matter the political party or religious belief or lack of.

My upcoming wedding and move to my very first home is a new beginning for me, I’m continuing my therapy trying to heal from my pasts hurts in order to be a good wife for my husband to be and that will continue well into my New Beginning until he becomes and Old Ending FOR GOOD!! My session was tough again this week, I’m seeing more images of the assaults in my mind and I’m ANGRY ABOUT BEING VIOLATED ONCE AGAIN. This memory is the first of 3, I’ve suppressed all feelings and emotions of it all these years and I’m now strong enough to allow them to come out so that I can begin to heal. I’m MAD AS HECK!!! I REALLY AM but I must not let the anger overtake my common sense and hurt someone who has nothing to do with anything, I’m doing that through prayer and solitude to keep me grounded throughout my days at work and beyond, He never fails.

I pray when you my followers are going through stuff, give it COMPLETELY to God, He will see you through regardless of what YOU MAY SEE, “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding, in ALL thy ways acknowledge HIM AND HE WILL DIRECT YOUR PATH.” Proverbs 3:5 Let Him be in charge of your life, He knows you better than you just like He knows me and knew when to send my husband to me and I love Him for it. LET THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH AND THE MEDITATION OF MY HEART BE ACCEPTABLE IN THY SIGHT OH LORD MY STRENGTH AND MY REDEEMER.

I want to thank all of you who’re following me, please feel free to invite others to follow me especially those who need help in the way I can help. God bless all of you

 

 

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