Preacher Kid Confessions

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HEY MY PEEPS THIS DOG LOOKS LIKE MY DOG BUTCHER HE’S MY DAVID’S DOG HE’S HAD SINCE HE WAS WEENED FROM HIS MOM. HE’S THE SWEETEST DOG BUT HE ONLY HAS DAYS TO LIVE AND NOW WE MUST DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT TO EUTHANIZE HIM OR ALLOW HIM TO DIE NATURALLY. WHAT A CHOICE!!

A couple days ago Butcher was licking my arm as I petted him under his chin, from the first day I met him at David’s place, he gave me the run down on his history with our puppies, Mamas is 15, Butcher is 11, he’s extremely close to them kissing them all the time, hovering over them like a storm cloud, they can’t move an inch without him questioning their whereabouts, STOP, LAY DOWN, GO HERE. GO THERE, EAT THIS, DON’T EAT THAT, STOP, UGHHHH, MAN DUDE GO, all day everyday, I’m surprised they still have nerves left from him worrying them to death. He went from our hyper, fun Butcher to our lying around, not eating, eyes red, drooling Butcher so we took him to the Vet to run test this morning once I got home from working my overnight shift.

David is really hurting right now I feel so bad for him, he loves Butcher and Mamas as if they’re human beings, they’ve been his only constant all these years because of his estrangement with his family due to past drug and alcohol use. His parents are deceased, he’s close to his sister who lives near us and our Kids and Grands live out of state, so the dogs are all he’s had and now one of them is dying and we must decide what our next step must be, let him die naturally or have him euthanized, I personally don’t believe in euthanizing, I’m a caregiver by trade and have had clients die right in front of me.

I know the smell of death, once you’ve smelled it you’ll never forget it and once my clients get to that stage of life where death is seeping through their pores I know it’s a matter of time before their organs begin shutting down completely. The reason for the scent is because the organs are beginning to shut down and now the decision must be made to keep the client as comfortable as possible until they take their last breathe and I feel the same for Butcher. We found out he has a tumor in his abdomen, were not sure if it’s cancerous we were told he needed surgeries that would cost thousands of dollars with no promise of a cure  so we decided to bring him home.

We discussed euthanizing and cremation prices and decided to cremate him allowing him to die naturally IN HIS OWN TIME at home where he’s comfortable. I’M NOT GOD, WHO AM I TO TAKE A LIFE JUST TO PREVENT THEM FROM SUFFERING!!! In my 36 years of experience I’ve never had a client’s family put them to sleep simply to spare them of pain and suffering, they all were instructed to keep the patient as comfortable as possible until the end and that’s  exactly what they did, now we’re faced with the same dilemma with Butcher.

While we waited for the Vet to come back into the waiting room, David and I took pictures with Butcher showering him with love and affection trying hard not to cry in front of him sensing he’ll not want to fight to stay alive so we just hugged each other for about 5 minutes crying in each other’s arms quietly saying goodbye as reality is setting in that OUR BUTCHER WILL DIE IN A MATTER OF DAYS!! It’s been over 40 years since I had a dog, they all died over time by natural causes where we would find them deceased and buried them in our backyard, Butcher will be cremated just like David’s dogs in the past and he will send is ashes to his son in California who was extremely close to Butcher when he was a young boy and I must deal with David’s grief over losing his close companion of all these years.

He’s been crying off and on since this morning I don’t know what to do for him to make it better but I will try something in order to help him get through this bereavement period in his life. He’s lying on the floor next to our puppy lovin’ on him, saying his goodbyes silently with tears strolling down his face. My heart aches for David, I love him so, this is really tough for him but I have no doubt he will get through this, NO, WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER!! Neither of us feel comfortable enough to just take Butcher’s life all WILLY NILLY, we feel it’s not up to us it’s God’s call just like it is with human beings, besides if I as a caregiver decided to end my client’s life sooner than need be, they’d arrest me for murder and lock me up for life so I feel the same rule applies here in this situation, WHAT DO YA’LL THINK MY PEEPS I WELCOME ANY COMMENTS AND ADVICE, how would you handle this situation? Feel free to comment.

David has said from day one that Butcher was going to be MY DOG because he took to me right away and once we moved into the house, he would lay at my feet no matter where I was sitting and at night he’d lay at the foot or my side of the bed while I slept so when I wake up he could greet me with a lick on my hand as I petting him on his head. This is our daily routine and I for one will miss him very, very, much I understand David’s connection to his dogs, I share in his connection and we will grieve our dog together until THE END. Goodbye BUTCHIE BUTCH, HE’S MY BUTCHIE BABY BOY ( ONE OF MANY NICKNAMES I’VE GIVEN HIM OVER THE MONTHS) I will miss you and I love you.

We were hoping he’d walk down the aisle with us at our upcoming wedding but we know it won’t be happening now, HE WILL BE MISSED AND REMEMBERED ALWAYS!! MAMA AND DADDY LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BUTCHER!!! SO LONG MY FRIEND! Let the words of my mouth and meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer, have a blessed day my peeps keep us in prayer as we pray for all of you in our daily prayers MY FAMILY!!!!

2 thoughts on “LIFE IS HARD BUT EASY (MY DOG BUTCHER’S LAST DAYS)

  1. Hi Bernadette,

    I tried to make a comment on your blog, but it kept asking me to log in and I couldn’t. Anyway, here’s what I wanted to say:

    Respectfully, if there is any indication that Butcher is suffering, you should euthanize him. It is the humane thing to do as there is zero benefit to forcing him to suffer for the sake of suffering. You seem to think that euthanizing him is ‘playing God’. Wouldn’t that also be true of giving him (or anyone else) medicine, giving vaccinations, performing surgery or any taking other measures that prolong life? People and animals are living longer and better lives because of these things. Animals can’t speak for themselves. As their owners, it is our responsibility to provide the best life — and death — that we can. Euthanasia provides a peaceful alternative to days or weeks of potential suffering. I think Butcher is trying to tell you that it’s time. Please listen to him. My sympathy to both you and David. This is a hard thing to go through.

    I hope you are doing well. Beth is planning to come to Nashville for the wedding. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to because of work. I’m sorry for not RSVPing earlier. Beth had another breakdown at the end of June with psychotic episodes, anxiety and depression. You probably remember how it was last year. The psychiatrist kept adjusting the medications with no results. Finally, she put Beth on a new one which has worked like a charm. After two weeks, Beth is almost back to normal.

    Please keep up the blog — I really enjoy your posts. They are very thought provoking, and you are a gifted writer.

    Take care,

    Daran Bishop

    On Wed, Aug 21, 2019 at 6:27 AM Preacher Kid Confessions wrote:

    > preacherkidconfessions posted: ” HEY MY PEEPS THIS DOG LOOKS LIKE MY DOG > BUTCHER HE’S MY DAVID’S DOG HE’S HAD SINCE HE WAS WEENED FROM HIS MOM. HE’S > THE SWEETEST DOG BUT HE ONLY HAS DAYS TO LIVE AND NOW WE MUST DECIDE > WHETHER OR NOT TO EUTHANIZE HIM OR ALLOW HIM TO DIE NATURALLY. WHAT ” >

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    1. thank you Daran we appreciate the advice I’m sorry you couldn’t come I’m glad Beth is coming and she’s doing better. Keep reading spread the word to those my blog could help

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