HEY MY PEEPS I PRAY ALL IS WELL WITH YOU. I’ZZZ MARRIED NOW, I’ZZZ MARRIED NOW!!! (SHOUT OUT TO MARGARET AVERY IN THE MOVIE COLOR PURPLE WHEN SHE GOT MARRIED TRYING TO PLEASE HER ESTRANGED PREACHER FATHER) I AM A MARRIED WOMAN NOW AND INSPITE OF A FEW MISHAPS AT THE CEREMONY IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL CEREMONY MY HUSBAND LOOKED SOOOO FINE THAT DAY, MY BROTHER/UNCLES WERE THERE TO GIVE ME AWAY, MY ONLY CHILD WAS THERE NEXT TO ME AS MY MAID OF HONOR, MY BEST BROTHER/UNCLE OFFICIATED MY CEREMONY AND LASTLY, MY PAPA GAVE ME AWAY!! (PAPA IS MY CLIENT WHO’S A FATHER FIGURE TO ME AND HE OPENED HIS HOME FOR ME TO GET MARRIED IN WHAT A BLESSED WOMAN I AM!!!
Hey ya’ll I’m doing better since my previous posts, I was really upset at all the mishaps at my wedding and coming back to work being reminded of them hasn’t been easy BUT I’m choosing to remember the good times over the not so good. My bruncles took time out of their busy schedules to give me away, I am so honored to have friends/brothers like them in my life. They’ve all been instrumental in my success and well being since moving to this state, they’ve been extremely supportive of me over the years in many ways, they’ve looked out for me concerning the men I dated, offered advice even when I didn’t want to hear it, and just being overall GREAT MEN OF CHARACTER AND VALOR I WILL LOVE THEM ALWAYS AND FOREVER, thank you BRUNCLES FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART WITH THE HONOR OF GIVING ME AWAY AT MY WEDDING!
The honeymoon period has been quite an adjustment, my husband has been on another level of selfishness since the week of the wedding, I know it’s nerves, but I also know it’s FEAR, he’s a fearful person when it comes to the unknown, he can be quite controlling at times but that’s because he was never allowed to keep any toy, clothing, whatever growing up it was always taken from him out of spite and to this day he’s very possessive of some of his stuff. It doesn’t bother me, I understand where he’s coming from so I just LET HIM BE but he’s also selfish and self centered at times and at nauseum, he never considers the fact that words can hurt a person and once you say something out of anger no amount of apologies will change the damage done by words and actions, we’re still adjusting to life as man and wife, the butterflies and moon beams are gone, REAL LIFE AND COMMITTMENT TO MARRIAGE IS HERE AND NOW and I love my David with all my heart!!
We had a REAL HEART TO HEART the other day he opened up about some fears and feelings he’s been dealing with on his own, I know it’s a BIG responsibility he’s taken on as a husband and father to OUR daughter but I’m not gonna excuse his selfish behavior because of it. He threw some items away I’d purchased for him because he was angry with me when I called him out on his selfishness but didn’t tell me until days later. I was so mad at him, I cried for about 5 minutes after he told me that’s how mad I was. I explained to him why I was upset and told him he needed to grow up and be the husband he vowed to be before God, family, and friends. He had to hold his tongue for a minute because I let him know everything I was feeling in my heart about his behavior in these last few weeks.
To my surprise he held his peace, listening to every word I said and has been working on those areas in his life ever since. We had dinner/counseling session with our pastor and wife this past weekend, we discussed everything with him we’ve gone through since our last session, we discussed riding motorcycles together before the weather breaks and our upcoming wedding at the church we’ll have in November this year. We planned two separate ceremonies from the beginning, we both love and respect our pastor and his wife and will be honored for him to marry us. He wasn’t available before November because he was transitioning into taking over as pastor of our church all summer so it worked out when and the way it is suppose to.
Since our pastor hasn’t married us we decided not to consummate our marriage but after talking to him he’s okay about it and so are we, I have a visitor who’s leaving tomorrow THANK GOD, SHE’S BEEN HERE FOR 3 WEEKS, IT’S TIME FOR HER TO GOOOOOO! We can’t wait to finally be together sexually for the first time EVER!! We’ve been together for 9 months and decided to wait until our honeymoon, in our case it’s once MY visitor leave. We will be FIRST TIME VIRGINS TO EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE WAITED TO HAVE SEX UNTIL AFTER MARRIAGE. He’s the first man to ever grant me that honor and I love him more and more each day as he wait patiently for AUNT FLO to leave. (Thanks aunt flo you have perfect timing).
I know it will be wonderful I can’t wait to see him later. I’m such a blessed woman thank you Lord for blessing me with a great husband, child, and friends. Please forgive my anger and unbelief and thank you for grace and mercy in Jesus’ name I pray Amen. Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight oh Lord my strength and my redeemer. Be blessed my peeps all day every day