HEY MY PEEPS I PRAY ALL IS WELL WITH YOU, THANK YOU TO ALL NEW FOLLOWERS, I’M HONORED YOU CHOSE TO FOLLOW MY BLOG OUT OF ALL THE OTHERS, I PRAY IT CAN HELP ALL OF YOU ACHIEVE YOUR FREEDOM FROM ISSUES OF YOUR PASTS BY ALLOWING THE LORD TO BE YOUR “FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND”!!
HEY, HEY, HEY, I WAS GLAD WHEN THEY SAID UNTO ME, LET US GO INTO THE HOUSE OF THE LORD, FOR THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE, I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT!! PSALMS 122:1 AND PSALMS 118:24.
In the last two weeks, I’ve had the most incredible experiences with two different circumstances where they’ll both benefit me in a way to help sexual assault survivors/incest survivors like me overcome their pain and began healing. My first experience was receiving a call from a celebrity I didn’t expect to get, let me explain, over the Christmas holiday I watched the Lifetime movie “EnVogue Christmas”, I’ve loved their music since their album debut while I was stationed in Germany. Their harmonies are off the charts, they are very talented women with the most beautiful voices and after watching the movie, I decided to tweet one of the stars of the show Miss Rhona Bennett to tell her how much I loved the movie and the group, not expecting her to respond back, to my complete surprise, SHE RESPONDED BACK, I was shocked because I’m sure she’s busy touring these days but she took time out of her busy schedule to contact me and I’m grateful to her for following through and not ignoring me like so many other celebs do to their fans. I realize they can’t answer all of them just follow through with the ones you have contacted like MS RHONA BENNETT did with me.
We began corresponding by tweet at first, we then emailed each other setting up a time for her to call me to discuss her seminar she’s coaching online and my possible participation, and on the day before my child’s birthday, she called my cell while I was at work, SHE WAS SO COOL AND SWEET, I felt an instant connection to her like a sister I think the feelings mutual because we opened up about personal experiences and her online seminar for over an hour. It didn’t take much convincing from her before I agreed to take her seminar, it’s called “Personal Power University” it’s a personal empowerment class helping people overcome their issues from pasts preventing them from reaching their full potential in life. I believe in her message and think I can use it and other resources in my prison ministry at my church. I KNOW IN GOD’S PLANS FOR US THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES OR HAPENSTANCES, IT’S HIS WILL NOT OURS!!! Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I know it was meant for me to meet Miss Rhona Bennett, I’m honored to have met her and thrilled to be learning from her, she’s down to earth, funny, smart, and REAL. I personally can relate to her because I’M THE SAME WAY HEYYY!!!LOL
My second awesome experience came an hour or two after I spoke to Miss Bennett, I was still at work when my phone rang, it was the call screener from the radio broadcast show “Hope in the Night with June Hunt”, it’s a Christian program focusing on our struggles with sin and how to overcome them with the help from the Lord and other resources He provides us with. I listen to it quite a bit, the radio station (BOTT RADIO) is preset in my car for me to listen on my way to work, one particular day they were talking with a woman who’d had an abortion years ago and how she’s regretting her choice all these years later and the other pains that come with the choice of abortion. She was still in a lot of pain I could tell by her voice and thankfully Mrs. June was there to listen and help this caller through her pain. After listening to the show, I decided to call her to ask for help with my issue of ANGER!!! YES, ANGER, I deal with anger on a daily and have been since I was 9 years old the day I was first molested by my uncle. It’s been suppressed just waiting for the opportunity to come out and that time came when I began telling my story to women like me while I was incarcerated for being behind in child support, (LONG STORY CHECK MY PREVIOUS POSTS).
My anger has been off the charts, I HATE BEING ANGRY, BUT I HATE HURTING MORE so I will continue to tell my story in spite of the pain and anger that I feel remembering EVERY DISGUSTING TIME I WAS VIOLATED AND THAT MAKES ME ANGRY!!!! Knowing this, I called her show to see if she could help me with this issue not expecting to hear from her for a few weeks and SURPRISE, the screener called a couple hours after I talked to Rhona. We set it up for the following evening and once that time came IT WAS ON!! We discussed my uncle molesting me at 9yrs of age, how I just froze in fear the first time it happened and how fear continued to rule my thinking when he continued several times in the summer. He also raped one of my other younger cousins as well. We discussed my dad molesting me at 15yrs of age for a year, 3 to 4 times a week, FULL BLOWN ADULT SEX with my father, HOW GROSS IS THAT? We discussed me being sexually assaulted in the military by my drill sergeant in basic training twice and my platoon sergeant at my permanent duty station once. I never told anyone about them until a couple years ago when I was applying for disability for PTSD/MST (Military Sexual Trauma.)
We discussed my daughter’s premature birth and sudden custody battle with her dad where I lost custody for being HONEST about my struggle with marijuana I used once I put her to bed at night. I never used it in front of her, she was well taken care of, I attended all parent teacher conferences, field trips, and special programs whenever they needed me there. My child and I were always together while her dad was at work but once we broke up because he was a CHEATER, he decided to file custody to take my child from me and to my surprise HE WON CUSTODY WITH LIES AND DECEIT NOT THINKING OF THE CONSEQUENCES OF HIS ACTIONS ONCE OUR DAUGHTER GETS OLD ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND WHY SHE WAS TAKEN FROM ME. Now that she knows, she’s very RESENTFUL to him for taking her from me. I’m angry that he didn’t protect her like a father should once she moved in with him, he began verbally, physically, and emotionally abusing her and allowing his wife and her children/grandchildren to do the same since she was 5 years old and they continue to this day.
We talked for 45 minutes, I was emotionally drained but energized at the same time once the broadcast ended, I felt a CALMING, PEACEFUL presence in my spirit the rest of the night. We set up part 2 of my interview for the following week for 45 minutes, Mrs. June and David were truly awesome and very helpful with advice and resources she has to help me in my struggle with anger. I don’t want to look like a hypocrite in God’s eyes and I feel like I am with my anger issue front and center, I want to learn to control it and move past it as I continue to minister to the ladies in prison and my community. I want them to heal just as I’m healing and I’m excited to be able to combine BOTH resources as a tool for my ministry to make that happen. I think the ladies will truly enjoy the information I’ll give them whenever the Lord says to use it until then I will THANK YOU LORD FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO MINISTER TO THE LOST AND HURTING SOULS IN THIS WORLD, THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING ME AS YOUR INSTRUMENT IN THE WINNING OF SOULS FOR YOUR HEAVENLY KINGDOM, I PRAY FOR THE STRENGTH AND COURAGE IT WILL TAKE TO TELL MY STORY NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IT MUST BE TOLD AND THE STRENGTH TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN ASSOCIATED WITH IT IN JESUS’ NAME I PRAY AMEN.
TWO BLESSINGS, in one day from two totally different people. I tell ya’ll MY PEEPS, GOD IS STILL WORKING BEHIND THE SECENES IN ALL AREAS OF OUR LIVES TO MAKE AND MOLD US INTO HIS IMAGE, THE IMAGE HE INTENDED AT THE BEGINNING WITH CREATION OF THE WORLD AND MAN. I will strive each day with prayer, the bible, and fasting to make Him proud of me and my effort to live like Him even when I fail. Grace and mercy is what He’s always given me and grace and mercy is what I want to give to those who’re looking to change their lives from sinning and begin to live the way Christ did, SIN FREE!!!
Let the words of my mouth and the meditation in my heart be acceptable in Thy sight oh Lord, my strength and my redeemer. Thank you Mrs. June Hunt, David, and Miss Rhona for blessing me in the last couple weeks by helping me HEAL, Be blessed all day everyday MY PEEPS/FOLLOWERS feel free to comment or offer suggestions I promise to respond at my earliest convenience.